The next day at work, as
I was bravely attempting to eat lunch with some of my more boisterous and obnoxious
male coworkers, one of the more brazen and better looking of the bunch started to
talk in annoyingly painful detail about what he had done the previous night. To my
astonishment, as well as most or all of my male coworkers I’m assuming, he cockily
grinned from ear to ear while eagerly informing everyone at our table and within
shouting distance, how he had repeatedly fucked Diana inside of her hotel room. He
left very little to the imagination with his bullshit of a story as he got pretty
graphic and descriptive when he bragged about Diana performing oral sex on him,
among other things, as well as what positions they had tried throughout their triple-
x-rated, sexual rendezvous. He smugly described Diana as being quite the little
partier and drinker as he cockily leaned backward in his chair, probably itching for
the chance to blindly take and answer questions from the stunned but mostly envious
crowd of onlookers. How I restrained myself from punching him or even reaching
across the table to slash his throat with a steak knife I’ll never know, as I
wholeheartedly wanted to kill him for making Diana sound like a slut in front of
everyone, especially since I knew he was lying. I just knew he was. He had to be.
Diana would’ve never done anything like that I kept telling myself, she just
wouldn’t have, she wasn’t like that. The mere thought of Diana having sex with him
made me sick to my stomach, though I didn’t let it stop me from picturing him
bending her over and pulling her hair back as he relentlessly and aggressively
fucked her doggy-style while she screamed and begged for him to fuck her over and
over again until he finally blew his love for her inside her willing and eager
mouth. I couldn’t help it. My fear got the worst of me. Although I still held out
a glimmer of hope he was lying as I started asking questions about the layout of her
hotel room in order to give me a better indication as to whether or not he was
telling the truth. Unfortunately and quite sadly, everything he described to me was
exactly how I remembered it. He had definitely been inside Diana’s hotel room.
I was bravely attempting to eat lunch with some of my more boisterous and obnoxious
male coworkers, one of the more brazen and better looking of the bunch started to
talk in annoyingly painful detail about what he had done the previous night. To my
astonishment, as well as most or all of my male coworkers I’m assuming, he cockily
grinned from ear to ear while eagerly informing everyone at our table and within
shouting distance, how he had repeatedly fucked Diana inside of her hotel room. He
left very little to the imagination with his bullshit of a story as he got pretty
graphic and descriptive when he bragged about Diana performing oral sex on him,
among other things, as well as what positions they had tried throughout their triple-
x-rated, sexual rendezvous. He smugly described Diana as being quite the little
partier and drinker as he cockily leaned backward in his chair, probably itching for
the chance to blindly take and answer questions from the stunned but mostly envious
crowd of onlookers. How I restrained myself from punching him or even reaching
across the table to slash his throat with a steak knife I’ll never know, as I
wholeheartedly wanted to kill him for making Diana sound like a slut in front of
everyone, especially since I knew he was lying. I just knew he was. He had to be.
Diana would’ve never done anything like that I kept telling myself, she just
wouldn’t have, she wasn’t like that. The mere thought of Diana having sex with him
made me sick to my stomach, though I didn’t let it stop me from picturing him
bending her over and pulling her hair back as he relentlessly and aggressively
fucked her doggy-style while she screamed and begged for him to fuck her over and
over again until he finally blew his love for her inside her willing and eager
mouth. I couldn’t help it. My fear got the worst of me. Although I still held out
a glimmer of hope he was lying as I started asking questions about the layout of her
hotel room in order to give me a better indication as to whether or not he was
telling the truth. Unfortunately and quite sadly, everything he described to me was
exactly how I remembered it. He had definitely been inside Diana’s hotel room.
When Diana serenely approached
me at work later in the day, after she had arrived early to work the second shift at
the restaurant, I asked her if she enjoyed her longer than normal rest the previous
night. Without any sort of hesitation or admission of guilt on her behalf, she
positively and enthusiastically told me how much she needed and enjoyed it. But
there was something in the indirect way in which she said it to me that made me
question her honesty as she looked away from me without ever making eye contact. So
for the remainder of the late evening and early night, I acted like a prosecuting
attorney and painstakingly questioned and probed my fellow male and female coworkers
until I had finally come to a satisfactory conclusion and judgment on her highly
questionable story. I had heard enough eyewitness testimony and firsthand accounts
to realize Diana had lied to me and even though I couldn’t prove she had sex with a
waiter named Alex, I at least knew she wasn’t alone last night in her hotel room.
Considering how she was willing to sleep with me almost immediately after we met, it
shouldn’t have come as a complete and utter shock to me, but it did. I naively let
myself believe she might’ve actually liked me when my gut instinct kept warning me
something wasn’t right between us. No matter how much I wanted and needed to hate
Diana for lying to me, I just couldn’t... I loved her too much.
me at work later in the day, after she had arrived early to work the second shift at
the restaurant, I asked her if she enjoyed her longer than normal rest the previous
night. Without any sort of hesitation or admission of guilt on her behalf, she
positively and enthusiastically told me how much she needed and enjoyed it. But
there was something in the indirect way in which she said it to me that made me
question her honesty as she looked away from me without ever making eye contact. So
for the remainder of the late evening and early night, I acted like a prosecuting
attorney and painstakingly questioned and probed my fellow male and female coworkers
until I had finally come to a satisfactory conclusion and judgment on her highly
questionable story. I had heard enough eyewitness testimony and firsthand accounts
to realize Diana had lied to me and even though I couldn’t prove she had sex with a
waiter named Alex, I at least knew she wasn’t alone last night in her hotel room.
Considering how she was willing to sleep with me almost immediately after we met, it
shouldn’t have come as a complete and utter shock to me, but it did. I naively let
myself believe she might’ve actually liked me when my gut instinct kept warning me
something wasn’t right between us. No matter how much I wanted and needed to hate
Diana for lying to me, I just couldn’t... I loved her too much.
Later that night, as I was
getting ready for bed inside my grandmother’s human animal shelter of a residential
house, I lackadaisically glanced at myself in a bathroom mirror and noticed my
facial acne had started to come back something fierce. In fact, the very next
morning before I left for work, my facial skin had deteriorated so severely and
swiftly overnight I considered calling in sick until my ever worsening condition
improved. But if I called in sick I contemplated, I couldn’t see Diana as I so
desperately wanted to. My dire predicament put me in a quick depression that
morning and as sure as the sun rises, I hatched up a Wild E Coyote-like plan to see
if Diana truly cared about me for once and for all, as if she hadn’t already made
herself perfectly clear on the matter.
getting ready for bed inside my grandmother’s human animal shelter of a residential
house, I lackadaisically glanced at myself in a bathroom mirror and noticed my
facial acne had started to come back something fierce. In fact, the very next
morning before I left for work, my facial skin had deteriorated so severely and
swiftly overnight I considered calling in sick until my ever worsening condition
improved. But if I called in sick I contemplated, I couldn’t see Diana as I so
desperately wanted to. My dire predicament put me in a quick depression that
morning and as sure as the sun rises, I hatched up a Wild E Coyote-like plan to see
if Diana truly cared about me for once and for all, as if she hadn’t already made
herself perfectly clear on the matter.
My idiotic plan was to have my
grandmother drop me off about a block away from the restaurant after my work shift
had already started so I could convincingly walk into work and tell Diana of a
supposed auto accident I’d gotten into. I was hoping Diana would feel compelled and
obligated to spend a little more time with me after work since I didn’t have a car
and seemingly no way to get home. Surely she would offer me a ride home or at least
stay with me until I found one I thought. So as I walked into work somewhat
fashionably late but not late enough to get fired, I intentionally ran into Diana
almost immediately upon entering the restaurant and began telling her of my supposed
accident. The more and more she repeatedly asked me if I was hurt, the better and
better I began to feel about our relationship. She really did care I thought…she
really did care.
grandmother drop me off about a block away from the restaurant after my work shift
had already started so I could convincingly walk into work and tell Diana of a
supposed auto accident I’d gotten into. I was hoping Diana would feel compelled and
obligated to spend a little more time with me after work since I didn’t have a car
and seemingly no way to get home. Surely she would offer me a ride home or at least
stay with me until I found one I thought. So as I walked into work somewhat
fashionably late but not late enough to get fired, I intentionally ran into Diana
almost immediately upon entering the restaurant and began telling her of my supposed
accident. The more and more she repeatedly asked me if I was hurt, the better and
better I began to feel about our relationship. She really did care I thought…she
really did care.
With everything going as
planned and as the middle of the workday quickly approached, Diana and I casually
talked about her impending departure for home the following day. As we did so, she
pulled out a tiny piece of crumpled paper from the inside of one of her beige,
pants’ pockets and showed me what she had written on it. Diana had apparently
gotten my phone number from somewhere and was grinning from ear to ear when she
showed it to me. This was the sign I had been looking for I thought, she indeed was
interested in me as a boyfriend after all. Even her friend Randy managed to fuel
the flames of my confidence later in the day after she notified me of Diana’s
growing interest in moving out to the western suburbs of Chicago, which just so
happened to be a lot closer to where I resided than the two hours she currently
lived from me. To top things off, Diana even informed me tomorrow wouldn’t be her
last day working at the restaurant as she would be coming back later in the week for
another brief period of time. Excellent I thought. This would buy me the time I so
desperately needed for my face to clear up and to prevent her from seeing just how
bad my facial acne could get. Everything was finally turning out the way I had
hoped and it was only a short matter of time before Diana and I would officially
start dating I wishfully speculated.
planned and as the middle of the workday quickly approached, Diana and I casually
talked about her impending departure for home the following day. As we did so, she
pulled out a tiny piece of crumpled paper from the inside of one of her beige,
pants’ pockets and showed me what she had written on it. Diana had apparently
gotten my phone number from somewhere and was grinning from ear to ear when she
showed it to me. This was the sign I had been looking for I thought, she indeed was
interested in me as a boyfriend after all. Even her friend Randy managed to fuel
the flames of my confidence later in the day after she notified me of Diana’s
growing interest in moving out to the western suburbs of Chicago, which just so
happened to be a lot closer to where I resided than the two hours she currently
lived from me. To top things off, Diana even informed me tomorrow wouldn’t be her
last day working at the restaurant as she would be coming back later in the week for
another brief period of time. Excellent I thought. This would buy me the time I so
desperately needed for my face to clear up and to prevent her from seeing just how
bad my facial acne could get. Everything was finally turning out the way I had
hoped and it was only a short matter of time before Diana and I would officially
start dating I wishfully speculated.
Then about two thirds through
my workday or thereabouts, Diana and I sat together at a table booth and began
talking about my supposed earlier auto accident. Diana had asked me if I was hurt
for what seemed like the thousandth time and after I said no, she shockingly stood
up and bolted out of the front of the restaurant and into the passenger seat of an
awaiting car. From what I could see, she took off with another female to go God
knows where to do God knows what and she had done so without ever asking me how I’d
be getting home or offering me a ride. She never even said goodbye. It was the
last moment we’d ever spend together at the restaurant.
my workday or thereabouts, Diana and I sat together at a table booth and began
talking about my supposed earlier auto accident. Diana had asked me if I was hurt
for what seemed like the thousandth time and after I said no, she shockingly stood
up and bolted out of the front of the restaurant and into the passenger seat of an
awaiting car. From what I could see, she took off with another female to go God
knows where to do God knows what and she had done so without ever asking me how I’d
be getting home or offering me a ride. She never even said goodbye. It was the
last moment we’d ever spend together at the restaurant.
Sad and depressed beyond
belief, I wanted nothing more than to crawl into a hole and never come out. Every
time I thought we were getting closer and she wanted to start a relationship with
me, something happened to make me doubt it. I walked alone and in the dark for more
than five hours on my way home that night, on what ordinarily would have taken me
thirty minutes to drive, stopping only to eat a Denny’s restaurant in the wee hours
of the morning as I pathetically tried to drown my sorrows in an oversized glass of
badly stirred, lukewarm chocolate milk. Since I was too tired and lazy to continue
my one man pity parade all the way back to my grandmother’s house, I decided to take
an expensive ride in a rundown taxicab, from a driver I awakened in the Denny’s
parking lot, the rest of the way home. I was so dazed and confused that day I had
no idea what I was doing or going to do. All I really wanted to know was if Diana
liked me enough to date me? Why I couldn’t just come right out and ask her how she
felt about me like a normal person would have done, was a mystery to me. I hated
this shy, wimpy, and pathetic part of myself.
belief, I wanted nothing more than to crawl into a hole and never come out. Every
time I thought we were getting closer and she wanted to start a relationship with
me, something happened to make me doubt it. I walked alone and in the dark for more
than five hours on my way home that night, on what ordinarily would have taken me
thirty minutes to drive, stopping only to eat a Denny’s restaurant in the wee hours
of the morning as I pathetically tried to drown my sorrows in an oversized glass of
badly stirred, lukewarm chocolate milk. Since I was too tired and lazy to continue
my one man pity parade all the way back to my grandmother’s house, I decided to take
an expensive ride in a rundown taxicab, from a driver I awakened in the Denny’s
parking lot, the rest of the way home. I was so dazed and confused that day I had
no idea what I was doing or going to do. All I really wanted to know was if Diana
liked me enough to date me? Why I couldn’t just come right out and ask her how she
felt about me like a normal person would have done, was a mystery to me. I hated
this shy, wimpy, and pathetic part of myself.
Looking back on it, I never
asked Diana if she wanted to go out with me because I already knew what her answer
would be. Her actions alone spoke loud and clear on the matter although I refused
to listen or take notice of them because if I did, my fantasy of us living happily
ever after would have been destroyed forever. I pathetically hung my entire self
worth and value as a human being on whether or not Diana liked me.
asked Diana if she wanted to go out with me because I already knew what her answer
would be. Her actions alone spoke loud and clear on the matter although I refused
to listen or take notice of them because if I did, my fantasy of us living happily
ever after would have been destroyed forever. I pathetically hung my entire self
worth and value as a human being on whether or not Diana liked me.